Break Up? Yay!

In a few months it will be a year since my most devastating break up so far in life and it has been a journey a lot has changed since the start of that relationship, the end, and the now me and one of my exes are still friends they are in fact my best friend and we still love each other a lot but I also dont talk to one of my exes and that has its own feelings and consequences and I get sad sometimes over the break up I get mad at how my ex treated me but I am also eternally grateful to have my best friend I get overjoyed when I get to see them and speak to them and I am still astounded by the patience and love I find in them I have always struggled with change and I fear abandonment more than most and the last year has contained so much of both but it has also contained more love than I have ever felt before both self love and others love and many of the important things are still the same well I dont know if they are the same me and my best friend things have changed but they also havent changed I still feel an overwhelming sense of calm when I am with them I feel comfortable and safe with them and so I say things havent changed but I feel more love and gratefulness for them we both have a better understanding of each other I think and our love feels different now and I like it now I like it much better now not that it was bad then i just like us now I think we can work together and communicate better now and I think weve learned to love each other better now